Why I’m Single…

(Originally Posted on November 30th, 2007)

I’m Clueless! I have absolutely no idea what I am doing.

That is why I am single!

I meet great guys all the time.

A new guy I’m seeing, he’s smart, earned lots of little letters after his name. We actually met on an airplane ride to Oakland, CA. Neither of us were supposed to be on that flight, but things happen for a reason right? He asked me for a business card. I was on vacation so I didn’t have one, and thats what I told him. Funny thing is I told him I own a preschool and he told me he didn’t have any kids… why did he ask for a business card?

Yeah, I’m that dumb.

He was so sweet he walked me and my sister all the way to baggage claim to make sure we didn’t get lost. He didn’t have any baggage!

I still didn’t think to give him my number. Luckily we told him that we were going to the same football game and told him our seat numbers. He actually walked around the entire stadium to find us… THEN I finally figured it out and gave him my number.

We’ve talked on the phone for hours each night (cheesy I know) and we’ve actually gone on a lil double date… He helped me cheat at “Uno” come on that’s cute! But when you’ve nervously sipped your way through a bottle of wine with your sister before the date has even started… You just know things aren’t going to go right! He was a trooper though, and grabbed a glass of wine to catch up.

But here is the thing… When he arrived at my house, he didn’t look the way I remembered him, not that he wasn’t attractive… he was just different. That threw me off a little. He actually came to the date with his escape clause all ready… “His cousin had unexpectedly come in from out of town, and he was going to go meet up with him after the date.” Lets just say he didn’t end up seeing his cousin that night.

And that takes us back to why I am single… I’m clueless!

I don’t follow the rules or if I do they are only the ones that I make up as I go along… kind of Ms Kisses Guide to dating for morons. Think about everything you shouldn’t do on a first date and assume I checked them all off. Not that I regret a thing about it, but it has given me the worst case of nerves after the fact.

I’d like to point out that I am a pretty good girl, my prior relationships were with men I’ve known forever. I am actually still friends with all of them and I’ve got my “Happy Thanksgiving” texts from them to prove it! So this is new territory for me. I didn’t even know how to handle the good girl dating situations. I’m going to go down in flames as a bad girl. What do I do now?

He’s supposed to take me out again this Saturday… whats he thinking? Expecting? What am I going to do… I’ve got no clue!